Sunday, 7 September 2014

Heart to Heart

I've been through a pretty crappy time over the past couple of years.
Without going into it, I lost basically everything in my life that I perceived to be good and then I lost my shit. I had a full mental breakdown from which I'm still recovering but that's not what this post is about.

When I started blogging, I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do or where I was going in life. I had no confidence or self esteem.
I actually remember goggling "How to take a complement". I hated myself that much I genuinely didn't know how to thank someone for saying something nice about me.

I've always been extremely shy and riddled with anxiety so the thoughts of even speaking to other bloggers online made me sick to the stomach.

These days I don't hesitate to reply to other bloggers online. It's amazing to see how the Irish blogging community really look out for each other. Big shout out here to Yaz for being my TwitterMama as well as a GlitterMama!

Through Twitter myself and Danielle ended up finding each other. After meeting up once we were like "Yes. This here is a forever friendship".
Soon after that I attended Hannah's meetup.
Danielle drove us up and before the event we met with Kathleen. I was blown away by how kind and hilarious she was. I couldn't believe that I had just met another person that I instantly knew would become one of my best friends.
I feel like I've known these two my whole life and that's the best feeling to have.
Since then we all talk every single day and I know that we are going to have many years of hilarious memories to share.

I didn't really have a main point to make in this post, I just have a lot of feelings and need to write them down.

I'm not going to sit here and pretend my life is great now because honestly, 80% of the time I'm fighting mental health issues but if I had written this sentence this time last year, I would be saying 100%. I can honestly say that number has reduced partly because of therapies but mainly due to the endless support and positivity I get from all of you.

If you read my blog regularly, if you've ever left me a comment, if we chat on Twitter occasionally, I just want to say thank you. It may not seem like that big of a deal to most but to me it means that I'm moving forward. I'm no longer in that place where I was afraid to live and that's more than I could have ever wished for.

Thanks for reading :) ♥ 


  1. Aw Nicole I actually teared up here! You are beautiful in every way and with support & time that number will reduce with each day. Here is to friendship, Cheers!!!!!!!!!! xxx

  2. As did I writing it haha. Thank you so much and I know it will, just got to keep pushing through. :) xxxx

  3. I love reading your blog, things will only get better from here on! ♥

    1. Thanks you so much, I love yours too :) I'm sure hoping they will! xxxx

  4. Lovely heartfelt post well done for being so brave x

    1. Thank you Clare, in retrospect I probably wouldn't have even posted it but I'm glad I did. Thank you for your comment :) xxxx

  5. Such a beautiful post nicole, and so brave. *Hugs*

  6. Awww Nicole, that's a lovely post! Sorry I'm only seeing it now! You've helped me out to with our chats too, I'm still battling with my mental health issues, very hard this month, but always helps to know I'm not alone....unfortunately though.....depression/anxiety suck!!! xox

    1. That's okay! :) Same here but you can always message me if you need to talk! They suck big time but all we can do is keep fighting. xxxx


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